To all my followers, thank you for putting up with my unawesome behaviour and rants for the past few weeks.
I’ll admit, I was a bit unhealthy and my body temperature was raging like crazy, and I have these weird itches everywhere and ugh I just feel absolutely *horrible*. And I’ve learned my lesson never to trust too much because the friends that you expect to help you will always leave you, and your family members will always be the one to come in and comfort you.
I love you all, though <3 You guys are like totally awesome for putting up with my shit (except for some people who doesn’t even understand what I’m going through right now and just consider myself as just looking for trouble)
Honestly, I’ll also admit, I’ve been saying things that actually have offended people without me realizing it. It’s… I don’t know, it makes me feel much more useless. I can’t even confide myself in my own feelings anymore, because I’m currently lost and confused with everything, also heartbroken and trying to find ways to heal myself - physically and emotionally.
I’ll leave you alone, if you don’t like my presence. I’ve been considering to quit my rp site because that place… is just depressing for me. I don’t know. I don’t feel appreciated by anyone anymore, that’s why. My real life friends won’t even watch movies with me because they have already watched it with their significant other, which made me feel more alone.
So… yeah. Thanks, in any way. I shouldn’t carry myself too far in my depressing state, because I know I’ll end up sucking in more people into useless trouble and future chaotic ragefights. I apologize for anything wrong I’ve ever done to you all, and I hope I can be a better person in the future.
Also, I’m still wondering what in the world is happening to me. It’s crazy, and complicated, but I know when I find the answer, it’ll be totally simple.
I’m just craving for friends, for attention… and for love. And so far, none that I’ve considered as friends had given me any. Now I’ll be locking myself up in the car more often and force my mom to drive me around the country. lololol